The First

So after many people told me to do this I am officially starting my own blog. I have been very hesitant to do this because I just don't know what to say and will I have things to say that people will care about? Well we will see, because here it goes.....

Jonathan and I found out we were expecting our first child about six weeks ago. He was away that weekend for his Grandmothers funeral, and I was still trying to get over the flue (I thought). The night he came back into town I showed him "the two pink lines." The first thing out of his mouth was "Are you serious?" He was so exhausted coming in from a very emotionally draining weekend, but needless to say that night we stayed up all night just talking about it. I was in TOTAL shock!! I was speechless, and really had no idea what I was supposed to be feeling. Jonathan and I wanted children it just wasn't in the plans for us this year. Well my oh my does God have different plans for us. I am a compulsive planner!! I have my life planned years in advance. God has done things to me in the past to show me that I need to live one day at a time and trust in Him completely, but man did I fall on my face this time!! 8:00 that Monday morning I called the doctor so I could get in as soon as possible, just to make sure this was real. The nurse told me I would need to wait 2 weeks, 2 WEEKS are you kidding me!!! I even asked her if the test I took was accurate and should I be doing anything!! She politely responded to me "yes ma'am those test are very accurate." My first appointment was march 19th. I went to the doctor, just waiting for the words to come out of his mouth, and he just talked about it like I had known for ever. I was still just in shock, I'm sure I was sitting there with a dazed look all over my face. Here is our babies first picture!! I remember laying there as the lady was doing the ultra sound thinking that is not inside me. I am in a dream and this is not happening. HAHA



That evening after my appointment, we called our families who are very excited. This past Thursday I had my second doctors appointment. It was a little more real this time. Jonathan was able to come with me too. We heard the heartbeat and it is so amazing, and crazy to think about.

I am 12 weeks 2 days as of today. These past few weeks I have felt so much better. I usually am not sick during the day. If I do happen to be sick it is usually at night before we go to bed. The real thing that I just can not get over is my lack of energy:
-I can't unload the dishwasher with out taking a break
- I used to be able to clean the entire house in like 1 1/2 hr now it is like 3 days.

I feel like all of a sudden I am in the worst shape of my life!! Just this week I have started to out grow some of my clothes. It is kinda a bitter sweet thing. I'm excited about what is taking place inside me, but on the other hand I'm really not sure I like what I see in the mirror :) Also this week It has really hit me that we ARE going to have a baby, and I am really getting excited about it.

Well that is all I have for now... i am really really really going to try hard and keep this updated!! Until next time!!

Magen